Hi friends,
I am so sad to say that my dad passed away this morning at 12:47 am at the Hospice House in South Bend, IN. He was finally brought back home Friday morning at 1 am via medical transport from the hospital in Indy that he's been at since his cancer surgery on Oct. 19.
I had planned to go see him yesterday with the boys because I had worked 2 jobs on Friday and was unable to make it. I let life get in the way of me going to see my last yesterday with my boys. We planned to just go visit him today because it was getting late.
After midnight the nurse went to move my dad in bed and he quickly changed color and stopped breathing. 911 was called and they tried for 25 min. to revive him. At that time God sent an angel to take my daddy to Heaven where he could be pain free.
This came as a COMPLETE shock to us! We were told last week that the dr. felt he had 9 month- a year to live. We just saw him on Monday and he seemed to have some trouble remembering some things and was very down in the dumps. I think he did enjoy seeing and "talking" with myself, my brother Andrew and our mom.
I am devastated and feel such guilt and remorse for not seeing him yesterday. There was no way to know this was happening anytime soon. I just thank God that he took my daddy away from the pain and suffering he's endured so far; and didn't allow him to continue on in pain. Maybe getting back to his hometown gave my dad a sense of ease in his passing, I can only hope. I have so many questions I want to ask my dad; with him not really being able to speak the past 2 months since the surgery it kills me to think of how he was feeling, the thoughts that ran through his head... etc. I just hope he knows how much we love him and tried everything we could to get him back home in time for Christmas.
Please just pray for my dad that he is happy and healthy again in Heaven...
Please pray for my family that we can come together to support each other...
Please pray for my 2 lil boys- Papa's only grandchildren, that they may always remember him and find comfort as well.
Daddy...
If you can see and hear me, know how much I love you and will miss you!
We grew apart for a long time but I once again felt like your little girl.
Please always watch over me and my family;
you will always be in our hearts and minds.
Thanks for all your support girls, it means the world to me!
Love,
Noelle ♥
24 comments:
Noelle, I'm so sorry....My heart goes out to you and your family. I know your dad knows you loved him and that you did everything you could to help him too. Honey, Don't feel guilty, you did everything you could and he knew that, somethings we don't have control over no matter how much we try to do. I know he is in a better place and doesn't feel pain anymore....There are no words that seem right at a time like this but please know my prayers are with you and your family. Hugs & Love Jennifer
Noelle I am so sorry for your loss!
Be greatful that you did reunite with him and had those great times toghter!
Find comfort in remembering the good times hunny
Know he is in heaven looking down upon you and your families and his precious grandsons!
Hugz,
Dolly
Noelle...I was shocked to see the heading title come up.
I am sheding tears for you to .
Your Dad KNEW your love for him and He would've Had great peace I believe knowing you and Brian were now married and as a Dad his job was done (to some degree)....He was probley very glad knowing Brian is there to love and support you.
may your Dad rest in peace...prayers love and kisses with you all
Noelle,
I am sorry to hear your Dad passed away but he is not suffering anymore. You don't have anything to feel guilty about as he knew you loved him very much.
I didn't get to tell my mom bye as I was on the road headed home to see her when she fell into a coma.
It always hurt knowing my siblings all got to say goodbye & I didn't but I know she held on as long as she could & she knew I was trying to make it home.
We will see our love ones again some day & your Dad will be watching over you & your family.
May God comfort you & your family at this sad time.
Oh sweetie I am so so sorry! I never know what to say in occassions like this...but he is in a better place and no longer in pain. Perhaps it is best that the Lord took him home before his condition got even worse. I am sure your Dad was happy to know that you and Brian got married and at peace because he knew you were in a happy space. You shared many wonderful times and he knew you loved him. A big hug and love from me to you.
I'm so very sorry Noelle....my thoughts are with you. Sue
Noelle, At times like this, I can't seem to find the words. My thoughts are with you and your family.
{{Hugs}}
Oh Noelle,
Heavenly Father, please comfort Noelle and her family during these coming days...please let them feel your strong and loving arms around them. Please comfort them and dry their tears. Thank you Father...
Amen.
Sending you love and prayers of comfort and Peace. I am so sorry.
Warmly,
Deb
Dear Noelle,
I am so sorry to hear about the passing of your dad. I know it is a hard time and I will keep you and yours in my prayers for courage in the days ahead. Don't feel guilty, God has everything in his control and there is a reason for everything. Just hold on to the special moments you had with your dad and they will bring you comfort.
With heartfelt sympathy.
Hugs, Celestina Marie
I am so sorry to hear of your Daddy's passing.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
{{HUGS}}
Judy
I love you, sweetie. Wish I could hug that guilt away but only God can. ♥
Noelle,
my heart aches for you and your dear family. I am so sorry for your loss. You all will be in my prayers.
Gina
I wish I knew the right thing to say or something, but all I know to say is that I know you are going through a rough time right now and I'm sooo sorry. You are in my prayers and I'm here if you need me.
Oh dear Noelle, I'm so sorry for your loss..I know your Dad is smiling down on you and will be watching over you, Brian and the boys. I wish I was there to give you a big hug. Take care honey, and please let me know if you need anything.
Hugz,
Michele
Dear Noelle, I'm so very very sorry to hear about your daddy's passing. Please do not fret about whether he knew how much you loved him, as I'm quite sure he did. Nor should you fret about not getting to see him yesterday. God takes people in HIS time and when it is right even tho we cannot understand. Perhaps you weren't meant to have that one last visit, perhaps God wanted to spare you and the boys any more pain. I know so much of what you are feeling as the loss of my dear daddy to cancer is still so fresh. He has been gone 2 1/2 yrs. and I will always miss him. May God give you and your mother and your brothers and your little boys the peace and comfort that only He can give. My prayers are with you all.
Much Love,
Stephanie
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Love,Mom
Noelle, I am so sorry to hear of your dad's passing. Please don't let guilt get to you. He knew you loved him and understands. I am praying for you and your family during this time. Peace be with you. Twyla
Oh Noelle, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart hurts for you.
I lost my dad in June 2008 (a month to the day before my wedding); it was a complete surprise. If you want to talk, I'm here for you, girl.
Dearest Noelle,
I have absolutely no doubt that your dad knew how much you loved him. Don't feel guilty about not having gone to see him the day before, no one was to know that he was going to pass away the next morning. Just concentrate on the fact that he is now pain free, one can't imagine what he'd been going through. He will always be in your heart and you have many memories of him to cherish. Sending you big hugs across the miles. My prayers are with all of you. Love you. xoxoxo
Noelle, I am so sorry and saddened top read this. What a shock. Please honey, dont feel guilty. Your dad knows you love him and he is proudly watching over you and your beautiful family pain free. I am praying and sending lots of love and hugs for all of you.
Amy
Noelle I am so very sorry to hear about your dad.Your dad knew how much you loved him and He is very proud of you.He will always, always be in your heart.Your in my thoughts and prayers.Big hugs,Jennifer
Hi Noelle ,
Such painful news for you all ..
this is the second news i have read , another blog friend lost her father in law on sunday too .
I do hope that you all can find some comfort in your loss , he is in no more pain now , and know that he loved you all in his own special way and try not to feel guilty about not going to visit him , it will just tear at your soul .
He does love you - and he will be looking down on you all , with pride and a big smile .
i pray for you all ..
hugs
♥
xoxo
Oh Noelle, I'm so sorry. My heart cries with you.
Oh, Noelle...I am so sorry to hear this. You wrote straight from the heart...and I can feel your pain from here. Good luck over the next few days...I can only imagine how difficult it will be. You will be in my thoughts.
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